Cost of Living by americanjedi (~23000 words)
John
Watson’s family has always been a little different. He never thought
about it until Sherlock died. Now John is running through dreams
collecting hearts.
My vote- I’m still having goosebumps
from reading this story. Sherlock falls (the canon version here) and
dies and John chooses to become the monster he never wanted to in order
to bring him back to life. Because embracing the hell his life would
become was preferable to a life without Sherlock.
And yet it
stands apart from every other monster story with the surprisingly
breath-taking writing style. For example- I as a reader know that John
is changing, undergoing a physical transformation with every dream-heart
he steals and yet the details of that are largely are left to the
reader’s imagination. The few hints that the writer has given, like-
‘ eyes that are all dark, like old blood’ or ‘his teeth on the elegant
conglomeration of bones at Mycroft’s wrist’, will make sure that your
imagination gives you a picture that is way more fluid and
spine-chilling than any direct description would have been.
Then
there was Mycroft bloody Holmes, who has been given his just due, which
is something many stories struggle with. After all, the elder Holmes
isn’t formidable simply because of his minions and suits and toys. At
the heart of his character he is first and foremost Sherlock’s brave,
over-protective and brilliant brother. God, the scene where he stops
John from revealing himself (his monster instincts telling him to go
after Sherlock) left me numb.
And last but not the least; the story nearly did me in when I reached this part-
“You are a fat idiot. John is my friend.”
John felt a surge of happy warmth.
“He has changed.”
“No,”
Sherlock growled, but it was cold, not how he’d picture a growl at all.
It was flat and cold as glass. “He’s the same. Exactly the same.
Better. I know that look; really, could you be more obvious. Don’t ever,
don’t try it. We’re connected now, if he dies, I die. If you touch him
you’ll murder me Mycroft. Are you ready for fratricide?”
There was a long heavy silence. John’s fingers kneaded the carpet on the top step.
“Nothing
mattered to John more than his humanity. He is deeply moral, intensely,
annoyingly moral,” Sherlock’s voice was deep, intense and moved
jaggedly with the rhythm of his voice, cut, cut, cutting like a saw.
“And look at what he’s become. He did that for me.”